One day. One day it will all make sense.
Why he didn’t look at you the way you wanted him to. Why, despite all your best efforts, it never worked out between you and him. The reason you didn’t get that job. Why that apartment on Robert St went to someone else.Why you felt your UNI course wasn’t the right one. Why he never bothered to learn how you take your tea.
Because maybe you blamed it on the alignment of the planets, your horoscope. Maybe you blamed the landlord, or your references. The girl who sat behind you and 2 seats to the left.
Maybe you even blamed yourself. For not being pretty enough or smart enough. For coming off too strong, or not coming off strong at all. Maybe you blamed the scar above your eyebrow that you’ve never loved. Or the way you laugh.
But the real reason, is none of those things. The real reason is so simple, and so out of our hands, that it’s maddening. We try to contrive reasons, blame it on various circumstances, to try and put the control back in our hands.
Because the truth is, the simple and maddening truth is, it just wasn’t meant to be.
But one day.
One day, it will be.